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Sunday, October 4, 2015

Lord, I am a blind sheep--my poem and prayer


Lord, I am a blind sheep.
A dull sheep who runs about thoughtlessly.
Even truth-seeking heart would lose its power in front of this dullness.
The tragedy is that, though I know well that there are various wolves with sheep clothes,
walking about, seeking whom they may deceive,
I cannot hear Thy voice very well!
One day, am I going to be eaten by one of them?
Since I am blind and cannot hear very well,
would You do me a special favor?
Even after calling me by name and leading me out to the pasture,
Lord, would you continue to carry me through to the final destination?
Because of Thy servant's dullness and weakness,
please grant me Thy special mercy.
written by Kinuko
Matthew24:4,24; 1Peter 5:8; Matthew 7:15; John 10:3; Isaiah 40:11


  1. Kinuko- I feel the same way, your words remind me of an old hymn:

    I am, saith Christ, the Way!
    Now, if we credit Him,
    All other paths must lead astray,
    How fair so e'er they seem.

    I am, saith Christ, the Truth!
    Then all that lacks this test,
    Proceed it from an angel's mouth,
    Is but a lie at best.

    I am, saith Christ, the Life!
    Let this be seen by faith,
    It follows, without further strife,
    That all besides is death.

    If what those words aver,
    The Holy Ghost apply,
    The simplest Christian shall not err,
    Nor be deceived, nor die!
    (attributed to T.W.M.)

    1. Oh, thank you, Maribeth. How encouraging! I wrote this poem with tears rolling down on my cheeks. Nowadays He has urged me to write about some hot issues (including headcovering, gender-inclusive Bible translation issues such as NIV 2011, Emerging church movement and so forth).

      So quite contrary to my original Japanese character (which does not like to say good and bad so clearly, nor like to "warn" people against something), I have to proclaim something boldly for His sake, while I myself is like a thoughtless, dull sheep who desperately needs His guidance!

      Maribeth, thank you so much for this old hymn. I will cherish it and keep it in my heart.
      Lastly, I am going to quote the words of Francis Schaeffer which I translated yesterday.

      "In an age of relativity, the practice of truth, when it is costly is the only way to cause the world to take seriously our protestations concerning truth."
      from "The God Who Is There"

    2. Kinuko- Thank you for you willingness to do the hard things. You are an encouragement to me! I will pray for the Comforter to guide you into all Truth. Keep looking to Jesus! -Maribeth

    3. Dearest Maribeth, thank you so much for your comfort. You have been my inspiration and I respect you very much. Maribeth, I will be away again from next week and will be back next month. I am always looking forward to reading your posts. with love, Kinuko
      p.s. Please send my best regards to your husband.

  2. This is beautiful and insightful, Kinuko-san! :D Lovely! The best part is this: He hears and answers this very prayer! What an amazing Lover and Lord! We thank You, God, for who You are!

    1. Dear Kay-chan, konnichiwa. Arigato-gozaimasu. How nice to hear that: He hears and answers this very prayer! Thank you for saying this faith-filled words to me, which I needed very much. Kay-chan, I confess to you that many times, (though having a good and sincere intention), I say or do something thoughtlessly and then I feel myself wretched and dull. When I saw that lone, astray sheep on the picture above, I thought it was me. And I cried out to the Lord to carry me through until the final destination. I am so grateful that this poem encouraged you! with much love, Kinuko

    2. Dearest Kinuko-san,

      Konnichiwa! You are such a dear, meek sister. I have been struggling with so many things lately, so your poem gave words to my feelings. I too feel this way. And I cry out in my weak, pitiful state—ashamed of my weakness. Yet this is one of the many paradoxes of the Christian life. It reminds me of what Paul said in 2Cor 12:9-10 (KJV):

      "And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.
      Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in necessities, in persecutions, in distresses for Christ's sake: for when I am weak, then am I strong."

      It is because we are so weak that we realize that anything good we do is only by God's strength. So, then, God is glorified in us through our weakness and His strength is "made perfect" in weakness. So, rejoice! And know that, no matter what, God will take even the ugly and wretched things and make something beautiful of them for His glory. Because it is then that everyone sees and knows that God did this—not us. :)

      Your little sister,

  3. Dearest Kay-chan,

    Oh, Kaychan, your words came into my heart like a green forest stream and refreshed my spirit. Thank you so much for quoting 2Cor 12:9-10. I am so grateful that Paul said "I rather glory in my infirmities" instead of "I glory in my power and strength",for indeed I find myself weak and little.

    <So, then, God is glorified in us through our weakness and His strength is "made perfect" in weakness. So, rejoice!

    Yes, Amen. I shall rejoice with you! As you said this is the great and ever-shining Christian paradox that in our utter weaknesses, Christ's strength manifested. Moreover, I feel so strengthened to know that I am not alone on this journey. I thank Jesus for giving me such a wonderful sister in Christ. from Kinuko

    "And from my stricken heart with tears
    Two wonders I confess;
    The wonders of redeeming love
    And my unworthiness."

    Elizabeth C. Cleaphane, Beneath of Cross of Jesus (1868)

  4. Lord, help me to love where I want to hate

    Father, give me courage when fear is taking over

    Jesus, may I see hope while despair is only visible

    May I speak when I ought to speak

    And be silent where I must be silent

    Those are the words that struck my heart when I was reading your blog. Kinuko, your words are so blessed.


    1. Dear Irina,

      Thank you for your heartfelt prayer. May our gracious Lord answer this prayer. We are praying to Him for your physical recovery. It must be really hard to do many activities while having much pain.We also pray that He will give you spiritual refreshment. Here you are, I will write down one poem for you.

      Heart that is weary because of the way,
      Facing the wind and the sting of the spray,
      Come unto Me, and I will refresh you.

      Heart that has tasted of travail and toil,
      Burdened for souls whom the foe would despoil,
      Come unto Me, and I will refresh you.

      Heart that is frozen – a handful of snow,
      Heart that is faded – a sky without glow,
      Come unto Me, and I will refresh you.

      Heart that is weary, O come unto Me,
      Fear not, whatever the trouble may be,
      Come unto Me, and I will refresh you.

      from Kohila, by Amy Carmichael

  5. Kinuko thank you for those beautiful words. Many a day I have felt like I may be swallowed up by wolves. I seem to have lost the gift of discernment :(

    1. Dear Regina! How are you? How is your husband? It is so good to hear from you. You know Regina, your comment made me feel all the more that I am not alone. I beseech Him, that He would give us the spiritual discernment in order to run this earthly race without wandering or straying. I ask Him to protect our dear sister Regina from various wolves with sheep clothes. Lord, please cast them away from her and her life now and forever. In Jesus' name. Amen.

  6. I read your poem in Japanese first. Sometime I also feel fear to know so many theology-especially new ones- overflew in media.Every believer who spreads their theology seems to try to say 'This is best interpretation of bible.'. Without staying in Lord, our simple faith of first days may be drowened in the sea,I think.

    Every believer has weakness.But I think that it is God's wisdom that we cannot be perfect. To let us ask Him humbly always and need other believers each other.
    Thank you for sharing this sincere prayer.


    Without staying in Lord,our simple faith of first day may be drowned in the sea.

    1. Sanae, thank you so much for your message with full of wisdom. I respect you as a wise woman. I think our Lord grant you "the word of wisdom" by the Spirit (1 Cor 12:8). I also read this morning that "Wisdom hath builded her house" (Prov 9:1 a). I believe that through you and the spirit-filled word of wisdom from your mouth, He shall build the beautiful house. ---The house where we can see His beauty and serenity, and the house where people find peace and rest. Amen.

  7. Dearest Kinuko,
    My husband expressed some of these same thoughts to me, but in regard to our children. The world in which they are growing up is so full of temptations, and we want to protect them and shield them. He also said that sometimes the greatest threat comes in the form of wolves in sheep's clothing. Many so called Christians are leading people astray. Will we all have the discernment to tell the difference?
    We are right there with you, Kinuko, and echo your thoughts and prayer. May God grant us all a discerning spirit and keep us protected from the evil one. Much love, Ruthie

  8. Dearest Ruthie who loves me and cares for me with your mother heart,

    Thank you for your sharing. Yes, I agree with brother Brian that the world in which young Christians are growing up is so full of temptation (both inside and outside the Christian churches!!)

    For the past several days, Sanae and I have been working on the research project regarding the issue of the book "The Shack" (by William P Young) and its universalistic tendancy. And we have published several articles. This book in Japanese was just released from the most mainline (reliable) evangelical press, so we are afraid that many sincere Christians in Japan would be deceived and drawn to the "new postmodern God" which is described in this book.

    Oh, I want to pray with you that "may God grant us all a discerning spirit and keep us protected from the evil one." In Jesus' name. Amen.

  9. I'm so thankful for like-minded sisters in Christ! My mom and sister in law thought that book was just wonderful. I thought it was rubbish and threw it out. That sounds like a very large undertaking. I will pray that God blesses the articles and pray for both you and Sanae as you continue to minister to the Japanese believers. -Ruthie

    1. Dearest Ruthie,

      Oh how encouraging that you echoed our thoughts about the Shack. I translated the following article (written by Dr. Albert Mohler) into Japanese. It was concise and well-written.

      The Shack — The Missing Art of Evangelical Discernment

      Although "exposing errors" is not my taste at all, in order to make it clear that universalism (which the author of this book adheres) is not biblical, I had to point out the vital problems of its theory. Because of this, I have received many hate-comments and criticisms from both liberals and non-Christians this week, which was really hard. However, the Lord also stirred up some Bible-believing Christians to stand up for His sake and supported me. This morning, I read Matthew 10. And this verse took my attention;

      "And ye shall be hated of all men for my name's sake: but he that endureth to the end shall be saved." Matthew 10:22

      And I was strengthened by the following Word of God.
      "The LORD shall fight for you, and ye shall hold your peace." Exodus 14:14

      Dear Ruthie, let us go forward this path together!! I love you so much in Christ. Kinuko