Take my love, my Lord, I pour
At Thy feet its treasure store.
Take myself and I will be
Ever, only, all for Thee.
-Frances R. Havergal, 1874
"Ever, only, all for Thee." At an age of 38, Miss Havergal wrote the above beautiful consecration hymn. Another passionate Christian woman and a missionary to India exclaimed;
Oh, Make me Thy fuel, Flame of God!
—Amy Wilson Carmichael
It is a wonderful prayer, isn't it? But imagine you have become His fuel, flame of God indeed. Then what will happen? Do people rush to approach you, embrace you and accept you as you are? No way! The opposite is true. The people around you start to run away from you and even dismiss you, because of your extraordinary heat, passion and pure fire.
Think of the life and character of Elijah, His fiery prophet. He was a flame of God, who proclaimed that the LORD of hosts liveth (1 Kings 18:15) and dared to confront the Baal worship preachers and prophets.
Does he have a big supporting group then? No. Basically he was alone. To put it in other words, his divine mission and His flame in him somehow forced him to be treated by others like this. There was no other choice.
Great eagles fly alone; great lions hunt alone; great souls walk alone-alone with God. Such loneliness is hard to endure, and impossible to enjoy unless God accompanied. Prophets are lone men; they walk alone, pray alone and God makes them alone.
Struggling point for young passionate sisters
So, if you are like me, you have a burning passion for Christ and His Kingdom. In a word, you are a living volcano in this generation. And in our dictionary,--fortunately or unfortunately--, there are no words like "moderate", "mediocre", "average" etc...
No matter how we try to be moderate, somehow our inherent passionate tendency will drive us to be "radical" and "extraordinary." Our cups are overfilled and boiled.
However, many of us have common struggles; that is our emotional ups and downs. Because you have been rejected by people around you so many times so far (because of the above tendency) that, deep inside you, there exists an anxiety/fear to be rejected again or a longing for acceptance, which makes you feel vulnerable, insecure or deserted.
Now let me share with you how I have deal with these issues. First;
Nobody will (can) fully accept you or embrace you, expect God.
Let us face and calmly accept this simple fact. And accept it literally. Though it sounds like a solemn, merciless statement, I've learned that, to accept this simple truth is the starting point of our joyful spiritual journey. Why "joyful"? Because it is where our second climbing point starts; that is,
It is necessary--absolutely necessary--for young passionate sisters to be fully possessed by Him!
We are volcanoes, right? And the work of the living volcano is eruption. Natural and carnal eruption is dangerous, however if the whole volcano is fully possessed by Him, then her spiritual eruption brings incredible eternal fruits for His Kingdom!
So, young ladies, let us consecrate ourselves to Him fully and unreservedly today. O Lord, here we are. Possess us fully and make us Thy fuel, flame of God in this generation. In Jesus' name. Amen.