Wednesday, September 2, 2015

My Words of Repentance

Confess your faults one to another, and pray one for another,
that ye may be healed.  James 5:16 a

My beloved fellow covering sisters,

Today, I am writing this letter to you in order to confess my sin. Some time ago, I happened to read the following remarks on HCM comment section;

"What is regrettable to me is that you, and certainly many of the folks that make comments here on your site, characterize the majority of the Christians who do not see the need for a fabric covering as being either ignorant of the Scriptures or willfully disobedient to them. They, and frankly you, hold themselves up as shining examples to the world as the rare Christians who actually take God and His Word seriously while the majority of all the other Christians in the world do not."

Oh, my dear sisters, this comment pierced my heart to the core. True, this person did not write to me directly but it was as if he was warning me personally. Yes, the Lord warned me through His vessel tonight. Though I did not realize it, it seems like the spiritual arrogance has crept into my heart regarding my stance on Christian headcovering. And like this brother said, I might have thought that I am (and we are) the "shining examples to the world as the rare Christians who actually take God and His Word seriously." So, I replied to this brother and said;

"I want to say thank you for your words.I believe that the Lord spoke to me and warned me through your words today. That's because I found this spiritual arrogance and pride which you mentioned, right in my heart. And I believe that by His providence, you asked me the above question so I came back to this comment section and read your words. May God forgive my arrogance and make me a humble servant. Once again, I appreciate your wise counsel. God bless you, brother.  from Kinuko"

I'd just wanted to share this with you because I consider you as the only one who can really understand my struggles. Being head covering sister in this modern world, I think we have to fight two big enemies constantly; 1) timidity/fear and 2) spiritual arrogance and elitism.
Oh dear Lord, how difficult it is to tread Thy path with humbleness and boldness at the same time! I confess to you that I am both timid and arrogant. Cleanse me with Thy precious blood and wipe my sin. At the same time, Lord, words are not enough to express to You how much I am grateful for the very presence of my headcovering sisters. In many cases, I feel I don't even need a word to explain to them what is happening in my heart because we have trodden this journey together. We have toiled and share joys and struggles together. And it is You who have united us with such tender love. Please bless my sisters who are scattering around the world. Keep them in Your arms and fill their hearts with Your joy. In Jesus' name. Amen.